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I AM SO BUSY.
[but I'm also so happy.]

you have a nasty tendency t want what you can't have or shouldn't want. you'll be damned if this time isn't any different.  this attraction, you're starting to realize, has been there for years and you only notice how apparent it is when and after he's around you.  can everyone see how you stare, how you long for something that's absolutely impossible?  there's no chance, no possibilty. they would laugh. everyone feels it, but not to the extreme you do.  you can feel your face get hot any time you think about the stupid things you say around him.  goddamn.  if you only could for once go with something sure, then maybe you wouldn't feel so strange after all these years.  but you have a nasty tendency to what what you can't have or shouldn't want and you'll be damned if this time isn't any different.

I've made a lot of mistakes this year.

I've hurt people I love, gotten cocky, been annoying, hurt myself, stopped carring, cared too much, forgotten what's important, been greedy, lied, made the wrong decision, and probably countless other things. 

I've changed a lot this year.

I'm not that wide-eyed, dorky girl with braces anymore.  I've grown from my mistakes. I've grown into myself and become a much better person.  Each day I learn more about myself: what I'm comfortable with and what I'm not, what I like and what I don't, what I can handle and what makes me break down.  I've begun to see the terrible things that happen in this world and continued to be horrified by them.  With years, come wisdom and knowledge, so they say.

I'm grateful for everything that's happened this year.

Without the lost friends, tears, joys, rejections, and connections, I wouldn't be the person I am today.  Generally, I like who I am and hope that I grow even more.  I don't regret anything.  Ever.  At the very least, I learn from these experiences.  They teach me how to act in the future to bring happiness.

This new year is a clean slate.

Everything is set up for me to have an amazing year.  I have the best friends a girl could ask for, a great boyfriend [ooohh, it feels weird to say that], and the lead in the school play.  I'm so excited and I'm so excited to keep living and enjoying everything.

Happy New Year, everyone.  2009 can be amazing if you let it be so.

Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.
Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.514

Do boys like this actually exist? Did they? Ever?
IDK.

No, I didn't make this post for the sole purpose of showing off my Bare icon.

You know, I always have a billion things to post about here, but I never can think of them when I'm sitting here.  It all comes rushing back once my mother kicks me off the computer.

Title: Light
Author: xfindyourlight 
Fandom; Pairing: Twilight; Edward/Bella, slight Jacob/Bella
Summary:  He adores her. He is selfish and hates it, but he loves more than that.  Ficlet, canon.
( All he ever wants is to protect her )

Lol lab reportzzzz
( halloween meme )

Happy birthday to me!:]

Fuck this. I'm so annoyed.